So, this week my normal weigh-in day was a little thrown off. Yesterday, I went to Nashville to go see John Mayer, and I had to leave right after work. So, I weighed myself on Tuesday and Thursday and took the average of the weight loss which means . . . . . 209.8! 1.5 pounds down!! AND under 210! People have started noticing that I look thinner and complimenting me. It always feels great to hear that. I know that my clothes have been fitting better and I'm starting to wear stuff I never would have 3 months ago. I still have lots of clothes in my closet that don't quite fit, but it's certainly getting better.
This week might be a little tricky - it's my "female" week. I've been losing steadily since I started this blog, so if this week isn't the greatest then that's ok. I mean, obviously I want to keep losing, but if there's going to be a week of the month that I lose less than others, this is it.
I want to clear something up about the pictures I posted. My very fantastic friend Brittany said she hopes to have my confidence. And while I intensely appreciate her (and everyone's!) support, I am NOWHERE NEAR happy with my body. And any confidence I have is just because I'm down 19 pounds, not because I'm actually confident with the way I look now. I posted those pictures because I'm tired of hiding, of only buying clothes that I know will hide my body. I'm tired of going shopping with my friends and only buying hats and jewelry because I don't want to see how I look in the clothes they look fantastic in. So I may be brave (although that's not the word I would use), but confidence in body is not something I have yet. That's what I'm working on! What I can say is that I'm proud. I'm proud of going to the gym as often as I have been, and of continuing to make good choices.
An old roommate of mine used to have a motto posted on our fridge - Nothing tastes as good as being thin feels. Now, this is all well and good most of the time, until you eat an entire carton of mint chocolate chip ice cream. I actually think nothing tastes as good as the feeling of pride you have when you're making the right choices, or after you leave the gym. Which, ironically, can allow you to have a couple bites of ice cream.
I think what I more so meant when I said "confidence" was your confidence in your ability to lose that weight. That was the old you and you know that person is leaving because you're telling her to GTFO. As I understand it, you want evidence that, that WAS you and to remind yourself not to go back there. I see you as confident in yourself to do what you set your mind to - something I talk about a lot but rarely follow through with. Regardless of the wording, I am very proud of you. You're a real motivator whether you want to be or not. =)
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